Love is Teasing, Love is Pain....i don't want it.

What's wrong with fate? I don't know why it thinks that that person and I suite each other. It's so annoying when it tries to bring us together! Today, out of nowhere, this issue popped out again just because of a stupid game of Truth or Dare. Sigh. The more these things happen the more I hate and love him. What's the matter with me anyway? I'm not always like this. Whenever I see his face, my blood begins to boil but then something in him makes me go back to my normal self and then I'll be able to see the real him without his face getting in the way. Sometimes I feel that the boy I always see in school is different from who he really is. I can also feel that he is afraid of showing the real him. I know there's a lot of him that he doesn't show us. I know this because whenever I watch him talk with other people, it's like he leaves 70% of him and hides the 30% of him inside. Although he just hides the 30% of him, it's already a lot for me, because for me 1% is already a big deal. If you can't show other people who you really it's the same as lying to them because you hide a part of you from them. I can't quite put my finger on this feeling. Whatever it is I know that it's just trouble in my part.

XOXO

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