What is this Feeling?

           It's been 3 days since admitted my feelings for this special someone. His special in a way that I don't know why I feel this way towards him. Maybe because he's the first person whom I hated,because of his perfectness, that in a mysterious way I suddenly fell in love with. I said he's perfect because he already had the looks and the brains. I suck terribly in Math while he's really really good at it. Why I admitted it? I've had a hard time(in other words: I really suffered). For how many days, I lose control of myself. At night, I always watch drama series that revolves around LOVE. Whenever I don't do that I can't sleep, not even a wink. There were lots of times when I couldn't fall asleep because he keeps on popping in my dreams. whenever he does that I'm having a hard time waking up. Te next day I'm worn out just because of that. One time I didn't go to school because my whole body refused to move. Whenever I tried to move, it hurts. So I had no choice but to admit it even though it is against my pride. I admitted it to my friend, who I call Twin. She's been bugging me all the time to just admit it. I didn't want to believe that she was right at first but slowly it all came to me. Love doesn't choose people. Anyone could fall in love to anyone. Well in my case, I think God chose it for me. Everything summed up to it. God gave me lots of signs yet I refused to believe in it.The result was my suffering. I feel ok now. After I admitted it, I felt all my energy came back to me. Then everyday I feel refreshed and full of energy, even though I haven't slept much. Just seeing his smile is enough for me to regain all the lost energy. So this is how love feels. I don't want it to end, though it's only a one-sided love. I don't care. All I know is that I really love him.

xoxo

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