Love is Teasing, Love is Pain....i don't want it.

What's wrong with fate? I don't know why it thinks that that person and I suite each other. It's so annoying when it tries to bring us together! Today, out of nowhere, this issue popped out again just because of a stupid game of Truth or Dare. Sigh. The more these things happen the more I hate and love him. What's the matter with me anyway? I'm not always like this. Whenever I see his face, my blood begins to boil but then something in him makes me go back to my normal self and then I'll be able to see the real him without his face getting in the way. Sometimes I feel that the boy I always see in school is different from who he really is. I can also feel that he is afraid of showing the real him. I know there's a lot of him that he doesn't show us. I know this because whenever I watch him talk with other people, it's like he leaves 70% of him and hides the 30% of him inside. Although he just hides the 30% of him, it's already a lot for me, because for me 1% is already a big deal. If you can't show other people who you really it's the same as lying to them because you hide a part of you from them. I can't quite put my finger on this feeling. Whatever it is I know that it's just trouble in my part.

XOXO

heiress_girl

Poem of a Girl's Irritated Heart

Roses are red Violets are blue

My eyes are chocolate in hue

a body to go gaga for

but in my eye it's just a bore

hair accompanied with waves

there is no shampoo to save

a brain full of knowledge

enough to go to college

But what's the use of  all these

if it's only for a tease?

What I want is more from you

your heart for me that's true

with your true love and virtue

all I can say is thank you

Eaten With Jealosy

                      It's so unfair! I didn't ask for this feeling in the first place so why am I hurting?
i just saw him with acting with another girl and I immediately reacted! I was so furious with myself. Can you imagine I walked out just because my classmates where teasing me because it was so obvious that I'm so jealous? Hah! What's worst is I cried. I couln't hold it any longer. That time he was teasing me to a close friend of mine. I got irritated because of that plus the jealousy I'm feeling. Grrr...I hate it so much! Tomorrow is their performance, I wonder how I'll react then. Whatever! I'll just erase my feelings for him. It's not wholesome anyway, part of me loves him and part of me hates him. I wish it wouldn't be that painful. I'm really having a hard time catching up with my emotions. I may be experienced already but I'm not that strong enough to numb out my feelings. Not if I'm seeing him everyday! I really really hate this feeling!

XOXO

jealous heiress_girl